pAPa

papa + mama = me...... this is a very basic formula....
from small... my mama always praise my papa... she like to say "u must find someone that just like your papa"....."but i don't think you can find the man that 100% as good as your father.. cause your father are the only one...".... **pengsan**... my father grow in a poor family... and he has 11 siblings... ***is normal for a kampung people to have so many child***...

1-Uncle Handry Peing (4 kids) ~ not sure :(
2-Uncle Gearead Peing (10 kids) ~ not sure :(
3-Aunty Josephin Peing (3 kids ~ 2B 1G)
4-Papa Charles Peing (3 kids ~ 3G)
5-Uncle Clement Peing (4 kids ~ 3B 1G)
6-Aunty Irene Peing (4 kids ~ 3B 1G)
7-Uncle James Peing (3 kids ~ 2B 1G)
8-Uncle Sylvester Peing (passed away) (2 kids ~ 2B)
9-Aunty Mathilda Peing (4 kids ~ 1B 3G)
10-Aunty Gatrude Peing (single)
11-Uncle Felix Peing (1 kid ~ 1G)

from small I set my father as my sample to find a husband.... (very caring + no smocking + no drinking + no addicted to gambling) +++ the requirements and rules set from my parent... so.. every time i feel very tension... i cant just find the one i like... but also meet my father's requirement... every time i feel like I'm finding a guy that will going to marriage with my parent not me... wuhahahah... i understand why.... every parent sure hope that their kids have a happy, comfortable and better life after they marriage... they don't want to see us live the life that they live before... very hard life... many sibling to take care... no education... no future... so they guide us... they take care everything... they plan for us... they control this and that... in the simple words... they set the rules... and we are the player... pengsan***... sometime i feel they are too control.... and i done have freedom at all... (i mean in finding husband)... but what to do... one day.. when I'm become parent.. I'm sure will be like this also... so I'm still feel happy and lucky that i have u MAMA & PAPA.... HAPPY FATHER'S DAY~~~

FrIeNdS

Today is my first time taking a small test on "how well do u know your friends" at the friendster.... OMG... after trying a few test... i just found that the test not easy at all... not even up to half of the score i get... i really don't understand my friends well... ha..ha... before this... i still always laugh my others friend that get low marks.. but.. after trying by my own... i just know that.... it is really hard to answer all the question correctly.... i have a lots of friends.... some friends are new known and of cause some are long time known .... then one person will not 100% know or understand their friend or their parent or their couple or anyone that around them... not we never try to fully understand them... that is because one person keep on growing... so their mindset, thinking, feeling, attitude, physical, etc.... keep on changing.... what can we do when we meet some people that don't have same mindset, feeling and thinking with us??... we cant force them to be like us.... what we can do is... try to understand them.... try to forgive them.... try to explain to them..... and try to join them as well... sure you will say... "why we are the one should do all this things but not them???!!!".... if everyone thinking like this.... then this world sure will full with selfish human being..... then the war will never STOP... then no more true love... no more true friend.........

TiMe

My test is around the corner... OMG... TEST!!!!..... after one year graduated from the university, i never sit for any test until now... i always drag my leg when i know that is a test for me to sit.... after attend the four days preparation class..... i surpose have enough time to prepare my self for the big day... but of cause.... for the one who know me well... i never like to start study early..... i have try to force my self sit infront the material... but still i cant concentrated at all... haizzz... now only left two days for me to study... if i cant get a good result... wat to do??... just let it be... then re-sit lor... hiak hiak hiak... thats maybe because this few days... im busy with some else stuff and maybe some relationship problem... now my small braind need to think so much think... and yet before this i never need to think so much... maybe everything just happen as what i had plan... PERFECT!!... but now.. the situation has change... i want more... im too greedy... i want more and yet i know that is imposible... the time for me to choose had been come... what should i do????...